Oh, no he didn't?!

Hey DWDI Family!


    First and foremost, I want to thank you all for reading my blog.  It means so much to me that you all take time out of your days to hear about my deliciously crazy life waiting on the Lord.  Most importantly, it means so much to me that you value the messages I feel lead to write and I hope that my life helps you all and glorifies God!!! 
  
   Now, on to today's post: I hope each and every one of you are having a HAPPY FRIDAY! Whoo-hoo! I don't know why I'm so excited.  It's not like I've worked all week, lol.  Nevertheless, I'm living vicariously through you all and I'm also looking forward to the weekend! :-D


   Okay, so you all remember that "someone wonderful" who turned out to not be so wonderful when he dumped me via text message because of "work"? The same guy that texted me during the winter holidays because he was "thinking of me" and wanted to be "friends"? The same guy who is used to dumping girls and then having them begging to be back with him? The same guy whom I told back in early January that I did not want to be friends because I would rather spend my time with someone who wants to be with me? Yes, that guy.  Well, he struck AGAIN earlier this week! *Dramatic music plays*


You say in unison: "Oh, no, he didn't?!"
My response: "Oh, yes, he did, DWDI Family! He went THERE!"


   All joking aside (you should know by now that I'm kind of crazy but in a fun way), he sent me a text Sunday night saying he missed my "bubbly personality" and hopes I am doing well.  I didn't see it until Monday morning and I was SHOCKED! Part of me does miss him, but I realize that what he did was cowardly.  ALL OF IT.  Someone who really wants things to work looks past your faults and works within the circumstances you both have because there is something there worth holding on to in your relationship.  That person does not allow for jobs or friends to get in the way because you are worth it to that person.  Period.  Furthermore, because Christianity is all about forgiveness for mistakes, admitting you made a mistake in letting me go is a big sign of strength through weakness.  You are man enough (or woman enough for my fellas) to admit you were wrong about me and you are giving me the choice to allow you back in my life.  That is a HUGE deal and it means way more than forcing yourself back in my life via text messages.  I have not seen one sign of strength from this man and I refuse to allow him back in my life for that very reason.  Is it hard? Yes, it is.  Very much so because this is counter-intuitive for me, but it must be done.  I would encourage you all to have the same outlook because of the following scripture:

Instructions for Christian Households

 ²¹ Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.  ²² Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands as you do to the Lord. ²³ For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. ²⁴ Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. ²⁵ Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her ²⁶ to make her holy, cleansing^[b]her by the washing with water through the word, ²⁷ and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. ²⁸ In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. ²⁹ After all, no one ever hated their own body, but they feed and care for their body, just as Christ does the church— ³⁰ for we are members of his body.  Ephesians 5:21-30.

  While we were nowhere near husband and wife, I look for a man with the qualities of a Christian husband and head of household.  If this guy cannot admit that it was a mistake to end things with me and he is now having second thought, then how can I trust him to submit to me as his wife, to submit to God in everything, and to care for me as he cares for his own body? If he cannot see and admit that his contact causes me pain and how selfish it is, how can I trust him to submit to me and to God as he should as a husband? If I can't rely on him to do these things when times are easier because we are not a couple, there is NO WAY I can rely on him to do it when times are hard and we are a couple!  That's what happens when someone really isn't ready to be a couple.  He cannot see his own faults and put his pride aside to ask for God's help when he needs it most.  I may be young and single, but I'm a tough cookie; I've been through a lot on my own despite my age and I need a man who will be a rock for me, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically when my fibromyalgia gets to acting up.  Cowardice is not sexy but becoming weak to allow God and Jesus to strengthen you is the epitome of SEXY (in a marriage-kind of way of course :-) )! I would encourage all of you to look at anyone in your life who is a possible mate in the same way so you can quickly separate the wheat from the chaff!


Now, enjoy your Friday and stay blessed! I'll ttys, DWDI Fam!


Love,
CCC