For the love of money*, or for at least not being broke the rest of my life :-)

*In reference to the song by the O'Jays.  The song describes what people will do for money, even going to extremes for the "almighty dollar."

Hello DWDI Family,

      Happy Tuesday!!!

    Okay, so after a series of unfortunate illnesses, including one from which I am STILL recovering, I am now able to write to you again.  YAY! I have missed each and every one of you! *hugs* I hope you all and your families have been doing well!

    Now, on to business.  So, as a recent graduate of graduate school, I have been flat broke for many years while getting my degrees.  Actually, longer than that as my family is nowhere near wealthy, but now especially since my dad is disabled and can no longer work.  I have not had a lot of things that a lot of people have had, but I have always had a family that loves me and the ability to appreciate the little things.  I also appreciate the value of a hard earned dollar and do more saving than spending, but my money insurance payments have almost wiped out my savings.  This is with my parents pitching in to pay for the bulk of the cost, which is a financial burden on them.

   While I await my professional examination results again (UGH), I continuously apply for jobs but only get interview calls for things not in my profession.  I really hope to get a job soon so I can stop paying for COBRA (yes, it is EXPENSIVE, but I have to have insurance for my fibromyalgia and depression medication).  It would be nice to FINALLY have my own car.  Yes, there are still adults who do not have one given to them by their parents.  No, I am not the only one as I have friends in the same position.  The fear of never paying off my student loans creeps in, especially given the toxic political environment and the lack of sympathy some people have for graduates looking for jobs. Plus, I thought, what guy in his right mind wants to marry me when I owe X number of dollars in student debt? Unlike many in my profession, I have never wanted an extravagant lifestyle.  I just wanted to pay my debts, buy a reasonably priced used vehicle, and get my own place.  I had been placing a TON of pressure on myself to look for jobs outside of my profession just to earn some money to replenish my sad-looking bank account.  I was at the point where I have applied for jobs I am way overqualified for and do not pay much.  But, I have had a breakthrough.

³³ Listen to my instruction and be wise; do not disregard it. ³⁴ Blessed are those who listen to me, watching daily at my doors,  waiting at my doorway. ³⁵ For those who find me find life and receive favor from the LORD.

-Proverbs 8:33-35. 

 
     Once again, God's timing is better than mine.  Given my recent rash of illnesses, it would have been a serious problem if I had just started a "real" job. My supervisor and the people I work with at my internship are very nice and willing to help me, which I needed yesterday at work when I got sick...again.  Plus, the last thing I wants to do is to get into a job where people take advantage of my naiveté and not properly compensate me/promote me.  I do not want to settle for something less than what God intends and I have to trust that He will take care of me.  I have to trust that despite those misgivings that show up, that waiting for Him to move is the best thing for me.  Money is not everything.  It is more important to be content in Him than to have all the money in the world.  Waiting is so easy yet so hard to do! Am I right, D.W.D.I. Family? Leave a comment and let me know what you think!

Take care and I will talk to you all soon!

Love,
CCC