Recap

Hello and Happy Easter DWDI Family!

   I apologize for being M.I.A. (missing in action)! I have been fairly busy and tired as of late so let me recap what is going on:

• Started back at my internship again for the next couple of months.  My supervisor and her co-workers are fabulous so it is great to be back.  Sometimes, I feel like I am like a cockroach they cannot get rid of because I go away for a couple of months and then come back.  Not to mention that I am the longest running intern at the place in history! 
• Talking to that "someone wonderful" again.  I think he likes me but our communication sometimes is less than desirable at times.  I realize that I have to be less available so he will chase me.  SMH (shaking my head) that people have to play games! I did not know it could be so difficult to just spend time with someone! Also, when praying about it, why did I hear something/feel something tell me that this guy is the one and I have to be patient with him? HUH?! I instantly panicked and asked God for wisdom and discernment so I can know the difference between Him telling me something and my brain telling me something that sounds good.  So, I am just backing away and letting him come to me.  I also let him know that I will see other guys but now I need to make that happen so he does not get complacent..UGH!
• Still looking for a job.  ANY DECENT JOB WITH BENEFITS.  My graduate degree is not working so I am looking for anything somewhat similar to what I studied in either undergrad or graduate school.  It is not looking pretty right now but I just go out on faith that something will come through.
• Still working out with zumba/walking/light weights! I am so proud of myself for keeping it up and people can tell I have lost weight.  Am I trying to get out of the plus sizes? Absolutely not! I just want to get in better shape and have less weight to carry because some of my fibromyalgia symptoms have decreased! YAY, GOD!
• My mother and I have somehow managed to get my almost-teen brother to pass all of his classes despite his months of slacking.  That took up so much time family! Not everyone has to go to college, especially if he does not want to, but failing a grade is beyond unacceptable.  I think having to really, REALLY, REALLY push my brother may be a recurring theme.  It is just so stressful to think that I somehow failed him and to realize that he does not have a clue about life and why he needs to care about school.

Well, these things have kept me busy for a good while.  By the end of the day, I usually fall asleep.  I am so sorry I was away for so long and you all more than deserve an explanation.  Throughout all of this, I have learned that patience is so important.  Letting go and letting God do His work is hard, and it may be harder for me to do than for others because I like to take charge of things.  These past couple of weeks have taught me that I cannot do that, either for myself or for other people.  What I can do is to pray and to listen out for God. I can tithe and I can go to church (this has be lacking as of late due to fatigue and will be a later post).  I can avoid situations and step away from things before I cause anymore damage (also another post).  As long as I learn something at the end of the day, then I count it as a victory.  You should, too!  

Good night DWDI Fam! I will TTYS (talk to you soon)!

Love,

CCC